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[08 May 2007|05:29pm] |
Yea, I dont know who reads this anymore, or if Im just talking to myself, but this post is kinda short, with a bunch of pictures.
Greg and I just walked away from this year's Ferris Frag Fest winning the first Annual 24 Hour Modeling contest.
We showed up at around 11:30, and at 12:30, the topic was announced.
"Citadel 3000"
I had an immediate idea, of a giant walker carrying around a old-gothic area church.
( This is what our winning entry looked like )
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[28 Feb 2007|03:36am] |
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Tonight, I remembered the exact moment I lost my religion. Where I decided that I was not going to spend my life as a Christian.
I have been harassed over the years, because I'm not a religious person...anymore.
I don't really feel like typing right now, so Ill keep it short.
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I was in 3rd grade (yea, long time ago) and I was attending a Christian school. We were talking about how you have to accept Jesus/God/Holy Spirit into your heart to be saved, and then you can go to heaven. Wipe the slate clean.
But a thought occurred to me.
I asked "But, what about the Indians, they didn't know about Jesus, would they still go to hell?"
The teacher responded "If they didn't accept him, yes."
I think a bit of me broke there...I had been told all my life, that we had a forgiving god, one that wanted us to work, and meet up with him in heaven.
But, what god would only let 1 group of people in Europe, the center of power there, know about the way to salvation? Why would he only tell them? Why would our all powerful, loving god play favorites? Why would he only tell them, so that they would go on genocidal rampages to try to 'cleanse' everyone else, and force them to listen to the 'right' way?
The Indians worshiped animals and nature, because that is what helped them live. the spirits of the things around them. Nature didn't play favorites. It was hostile to everyone equally. Not God. He liked the people who know about him. screw everyone else.
So I got to thinking.
According to everything I was taught, we were made on earth just to bow to this all powerful guy, or be punished. If we are good, we get to go to a new place, full or worldly delights (for some odd reason, who needs gold paved streets once they are dead?) and we can worship him, for all eternity. Riiiight. So, he tells 1 small group of people in central Europe how to go to him. Everyone else, well, they get to be punished.
Even if I was wrong on some level, I would rather burn in hell with Lucifer than bow to a guy like that.
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[23 Feb 2007|09:09am] |
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God damn it, this project is pissing me off so bad.
Let me break this down.
Cory, the teacher who always tries to 'push students to a new level' or some shit assigned us this.
We need 5 animations, using Max's skeletal system. 1 of those uses 2 bipeds, so technically we need 6 animations.
He said to Josh earlier in the week that each animaiton should take about 5 hours.
Well, 6*5 = 30 hours.
If you dont work on it for 2 days in a week, thats 15 hours/week. Or 3 hours per nite. On 1 project.
Not to mention that we had to do all our filming and whatnot for our video class this week, and we have to finish the Jukebox for an actual client thats due in about 2 weeks, complete.
And I looked on webCT today, and what do you know, her has already assigned a midterm project, due after we come back from spring break.
Of everything that we do in this degree, this is what I hate most. I have abolutly no sense of 3d timing, and my stuff looks like shit. No matter how good my model looks. if i try to do this, it will look like crap.
So, Im trying to do this, and just getting angry because nothing I try looks right, and there isnt anything I can do about it.
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[29 Jan 2007|09:26am] |
My Great-grandma is dying. I only met her once, when I was really young, so I wasn't very close to her (she lives in Maryland). However, its taking a toll on the rest of my family.
:(
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[02 Jan 2007|12:57am] |
Ya know, I guess thats how it always is. My life follows waves, there is the ups, followed by downs.
We were supposed to go to my Dad's yesterday.
I didnt wake up untill 5pm, since the nite before I layed on the floor, and never fell asleep. My cousin had finally got up, so I migrated to the couch at about 10am. And slep till 5. I got up, and my mom was still in her pajama's. She was talking to my grandma about how she wasn't feeling too well, so I said that my shoulders and whatnot were hurting a bit from laying on the floor.
So, we decided to just stay home for the nite. My mom called my dad, and told him that. He said he was dissapointed, but I have been all over the freaking place this week. 2/3 of the day was already over, and I was still tired. We said that we could come over today, so I could visit him for a while before going back to GR tomarrow.
So, my mom went to bed at about 10, I watched Metalocolypse, and then went to sleep.
We got up this morning around 1. Me and my brother took our showers, and my mom tried calling my dad...
He didn't pick up.
After about 2 hours of her trying, he finally picked up, and said he wasn't in the mood for us to come over.
Ya know, it fells kinda shitty for that to be my sendoff back to GR, after meeting the family and stuff for Christmas. I see how he could be mad at us not coming over, but its not like we did anything, we just hung out at my grannies and went to sleep.
I don't know. I guess im just frustrated. This morning, after he told my Mom that he didn't want us over, it was such a deep dissapointment, that it was almost a feeling of betrayal.
Somthing like this whole situation, this late in my life, its just hard to deal with. Ive been trying. I can tell my dad has been too. Its just...shit like this mades it all just fall apart.
I just don't know.
Ill be happy to be in my own home tomarrow, prolly around 6-7pm. I'll be happy to sleep in my own bed, and be on my own internet, and get back to my anti-social self.
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[29 Nov 2006|03:17am] |
Why the hell does a volume pedal cost so damn much?
All it is, is a audio pot hooked to a piece of metal with a spring under it.
I could prolly build one for like $5 at radio shack....
I might have a project to do. <.
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[05 Nov 2006|03:30am] |
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Man, Maria-Jen-Johvanna's party tonight was sweet.
i went as an escuse to drink - I have lots of liquer, but havn;t really had time.
I stayed, because it was fun.
Overall though, it was pretty sweet. It reminded me of the really early 5 lyon parties...like before Gina started having a gazilllion folks over. I like the small parties better anyway. (Gina's parties were sweet too though)
I got kinda drunk, and possibly annoying, but meh.
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[29 Oct 2006|12:37am] |
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Yea, its a bit sacreligious, but, Jim Beam black just might be better than Crown Royal.
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[27 Oct 2006|09:33pm] |
Hmm....I just spent a ton of money on alchy.
Well, most of it was bottle returns, but it was still a lot.
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[13 Oct 2006|01:54am] |
Ugh, again I can't sleep.
Damn it.
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[10 Oct 2006|06:51pm] |
Yay! Another long, stupid post, by James! Whoo-hoo!
Ah, god I'm tired.
Bah, Ive been up watching lost for this entire weekend.
Almost 2 full seasons since friday. Thats a lot of watchin. I've got like 3 episodes, then the one from last week to watch before tomarrow nite, when the new episode is on. Bah.
Ive noticed something. TV is starting to not suck.
Take a look at this list, all fine shows:
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Lost - ABC
Prison Break - Fox
Battlestar Galactica - Sci-Fi
Metalocolypse - Cartoon Network
All currently running.
And shows that arnt:
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Avatar - Nickelodean
So, basically, there is 5 stuff I like watching right now.
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Im sitting here in intro programming, learning about classes. Right. Ive only known this for a few years.
So, Im just sitting here. Tired as fuck.
I need to start sleeping; I ran out of my sleeping pills before moving, and this has been the schedule for the last week or so.
Tuesday (10-3): Tried to go to sleep at midnight. didn't happen. 0 hours of sleep.
Wednesday (10-4): Went to sleep around 3. Had to be up at 9 to go with my mom. 6 hours.
Thursday (10-5) : Tried to sleep at midnight, again. Did not sleep. Had to be up at 7 to go to work. 0 hours.
friday(10-6) : Came home from work, and sleep for 2 hours. Went to sleep around 3am, and was up at 9. 8 hours.
Saturday & Sunday. Got to sleep easy both nites, but didn't sleep much. About 13 hours.
Monday (10-9) : Mainly, did not sleep. Maybe 2 hours total.
So. from 10-3, to 10-10. A whole week. Ive had about 29 hours. Of the 56 reccomended minumum.
It kind of makes me wonder how I function. I feel fine, besides this ear infection or whatever I've had since thursday nite.
Yea, that sucks.
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[04 Oct 2006|03:18am] |
Well, this really sucks.
I can't sleep. Tomarrow is my long day.
I have multiple types of insomnia.
This, is one of the ones I hate most.
I want to sleep. My head hurts, my legs hurt. But, I just can't. Im fucking wide awake.
Tomarrow, I have class non-stop from 9:30am - 4:30pm, then at 5, a guest speaker is showing up at Ferris (This guy directed the Harry Potter games, along with Lemony Snicket's and some other stuff) And I wanted to hear what he had to say.
I think I get this form of insomnia from my mom. She will say she doesn't have it, but sometimes I would wake up in the morning, and the house would be clean. Yea, its that kind.
I've actually paused while writing this 3 or 4 times because Im cleaning up my desk.
God damn it
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[03 Oct 2006|06:12pm] |
*I'm blogging this" - as quoted by Greg, but, HA! I beat you to it! Bitch! Bwhahahahah
Anywho.
Today, we came across a piece of GRADE-A stupid. I <3 teh public skool systum!
Yea, Economics, at GRCC.
The lecture went something like this, we were discussing unemployment. The teacher brought up Michigan as being the worst in the nation.
"Michigan ranked 50th in employment, with the highest umemployment rate in the nation, almost 8%"
all of a sudden, a brunette (not a blond! What a surprise!) raises here hand.
"So what state had the worst unemployment?"
pause
"I mean, we do have 52 states right?"
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[01 Oct 2006|02:49am] |
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[22 Sep 2006|12:50pm] |
I don't have work tomarrow.
I have a bit of alchohol left, and some money to buy more.
I don't have anything to do tonight.
Anything going on? I hope I don't end up watching Mcguyver drunk, on a friday nite, lol.
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[18 Sep 2006|01:22am] |
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I think I'm going to build a stripper pole for my living room.
Anywho. Not much going on. Stuff and more stuff, and homework, and whatnot.
I do have a great job though, and I'm getting almost as much money as my mom makes.
Yea, due to complications, Ferris is paying me 10$ an hour as a lab monitor. I have a job with them at that rate, and they said its easier just to pay me that for both jobs. So, thats awesome.
I bought the rest of the Dungeons and Dragons books I needed to run my own games. Now, I need to develop a sweet setting, and do it in DnD, then later make a computer game out of it. its cool when playing games lets you design games for the furture, or something.
Im starting to get bored with college. Not sick of it, just bored. Not learning anything, and whatnot.
Ive been playing my acoustic almost every day, Ive got some cool stuff worked out, and I might start recording some stuff soon.
Im accidently becoming one of the 'popular' folks at the school, which was never my intention. I don't like sticking out like that.
Lately, Ive just been felling like leaving the apartment, and doing something, even if its just walking around late at nite, to get a fountain drink from the gas station. I havn't been doing it, but I feel like I'm going to start soon. Im just getting bored with everything.
Ive somehow become political. I don't know why.
Meh.
Ill try to post some entries more often, but sometimes it just feels like I'm talking to myself.
Im off to do some reading, and get a few hours of sleep before work. Later folks.
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[07 Sep 2006|03:06am] |
Its kind of a downer when you find out your HS friends are out in the world actually doing stuff.
Im in my 3rd year of college, and I don't feel yet like I have developed any usefull talents to take to a profession. Nor do I feel like I have learned anything from all the expensive GE classes Ive had to take.
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[01 Sep 2006|02:22am] |
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Wow. I got wasted.
This is the drunkest Ive been in a long time.
Eheheheheheh.
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